I have heard blogging can be a form of therapy.
I need therapy, so here we go.
Session #1
No charge
I have lost two friends this year.
Not to death...Thank God...
To Drama!
Seriously! Last time I checked we were adults and long out of the pettiness we saw running rampant in middle school. I won't go into details of how or why the friendships ended to save you all from the same drama. But, I will not save you from an explanation of how I feel.
With one particular friend, it was like riding a roller coaster.
Times were great: I did all the right things. said the perfect comments, hosted the perfect get togethers, etc...we were UP.
Times were tough: I said the wrong things. I didn't agree with everything she said, etc...we were DOWN.
I am tired.
I can't take it anymore.
I want off the roller coaster.
I consider myself to be a pretty good person. I feel that I am giving, compassionate, real, dependable, and honest (to a fault sometimes). But, I sometimes make mistakes and need to be more encouraging, supportive, and a better listener. I will continue to work on that....with my other friendships.
One thing I have learned through all of this...
Words hurt! They cut through the soul like a sword. They cannot be taken back. EVER! And, when they are written, they hurt even more. They just seem so permanent on paper.
Life just sucks sometimes, doesn't it?
No matter how bad the situation, it hurts to lose a friend. But, as the old saying goes:
Friends come and go.....
I have had many friends come into my life, and a few fall out. It is never easy. But, I have to put an end to the drama and focus on my family and other, more stable, friends.
Thank you for listening and being my silent therapist.
I feel better.
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4 comments:
Your welcome same time next week? Seriously though don't we all need therapy? Mine is in the form of hot tea these days.
You are a great friend and I am proud to call you just that...... friend.
My gosh - we TOTALLY need to form a club... although mine isn't a friend issue - it's family. My mother and her sister to be exact... and yes - words hurt very badly. This is why I'm chosing to stay away from them this Christmas - so that no more hurtful ones are said.
You are a great friend and I totally respect your honesty and welcome it with open arms.. Dont change a thing!! Love ya!
I sure hope I am one of those stable friends!! ;) Your the best; keep staying aware and consciensious of your words and motives and your friendships will last; however, as we all know we can all run into the stray drama queen here and there and we just don't have time for that at our age. Wasn't high school over like 20 years ago???? Love ya!
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