Baditude

Chalk it up to the infection running through my body or the heavy doses of meds trickling through my veins....
Maybe its the busyness of the Fall or the everlasting effects of Ike trauma....
or maybe it's a severe case of baditude.....

Yep, my name is Jennifer and I am negaholic.

Laugh if you must, but it is serious. I can't even determine when it started, but I am ready to cure it. I sort of feel like I lost sight of the happy Jennifer. I am usually a pretty positive person, but as of late, that has dwindled. I am ready to change that.

A little background first.....

I will be having a lingual tonsillectomy and a adenoidectomy on October 21st. For the last two years I have been fighting off throat infection after throat infection. I was hoping with high doses of steroids and antibiotics, I could save myself from having surgery...but tis not true. My throat infection has flared up again and now is the time to have the festering tissue removed. Hence the throat infection and medicine mentioned above.



Cypress Calling is a ministry that a couple of girls and I started in March of this year. God has done AMAZING things through this ministry in the short six months we have been working, but along with His work comes a lot of other work and tons of worry. It seems that when you are working for the Lord, life can quickly get in the way, and the first thing to go for many people is their commitment to the ministry. So then what happens? It comes back to me. I have questioned many times what God has intended for this ministry. Time after time, He sends me amazing people or messages to tell me that all this is worth it. I am thankful for the people who have stepped up and helped further God's kingdom with me and I pray for those who have had to step back. Hopefully they will be able to come back and join us soon.

Then there is the Hurricane and all its aftermath. Enough said. After the hurricane, we traveled both weekends and that just added to the stress of everything else.

So here I am...
Tired, overwhelmed, sick, concerned, ...feel free to add your own adjectives as they will probably fit.

And then an amazing thing happened:
On Saturday night, Kevin and I went to church and heard a great message. It was about marriage, but it's main focus was changing your attitude. One statement that struck a chord with me is:

Trouble is inevitable, but misery is optional!

Basically everything else was stuff I already knew, but needed to hear again. We were left with this scripture:

"For it is God who is at work within you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases Him." Phil. 2:13

I know I have heard that scripture a lot, but this time I took it to heart. God gives us the desire (which is definately missing) and the power (which I so desperately need) to do what we know we need to do.

I felt very free after this sermon. Like I have heard so many of you say, I felt like a spotlight was shining down on my head during the service. I am so ready to change my attitude and quit being a negaholic!